Welcome 2018!!

I’ve decided its time to get back into the blogging world again. I made a promise that when we had kids I would not stop blogging. I’ve not let our blog go away but it has definitely been put on hold for a long time! I knew life was going to change with having children but my goodness nothing could have prepared me for how much! These little people have become our whole world and I love it all! There is never a ‘normal’ day around here and most of the time I feel like we fly by the seat of our pants from one moment to the next but even with the busy-ness and craziness that I call each day, being Mommy is still living a dream! 

In the coming year I hope to do many things as a family, have adventures, take trips, make memories, learn, play, grow closer to each other, but most of all I want our family to grow closer to the Lord and live for Him more than before. I hope y’all will follow us here as we share things from our lives, and enjoy our crazy adventures with us. 

I pray 2018 finds your lives filled with many blessings in the coming year. Happy New Year from our family to yours! 

But If Not…

but if not
Three hebrew children faced with their greatest trial of all
The king said give them one last chance, surely their faith will fall
But they would not bow, and they would not bend
All they said was we will stand
For the God we serve is able to deliver from your hand

But if not, we’re still gonna love with all our might
We’re still gonna bless His name through the darkest night
Not our will but His be done, The Lord, He knows our heart
He may grant us our request, but if not, we’ll trust His way is best

Lord, I know that I have prayed this prayer so many times before
But here I am before you now pleading my case once more
Lord, You know how important this one thing is to me
And I believe You’re able to give me what I need

But if not, I’m still gonna love with all my might
I’m still gonna bless Your name through the darkest night
Not my will, but Thine be done, O Lord, You know my heart
You may grant me my request, but if not, I’ll trust Your way is best

It’s been over 3 years since Jonathan and I started this blog. We began sharing with the world the desire we had to have a family of our own. This was an area of our lives that was somewhat private. Those who knew us well, knew the situation we were in and prayed with us that someday God would answer our prayer, but really it was a step of faith to share those deepest desires, to open our hearts to so many people especially not knowing what the outcome would be. I remember thinking “What are people gonna think of us for doing this?” I knew some people would help us, would pray, and would be kind to us but we also received some criticism and harsh remarks along the way. We knew that would possibly happen too, but trusting The Lord and letting Him lead us we followed His plan as best we knew how.

There were days that I watched as money for those puzzle pieces poured in and I could only stand in amazement, but there were still times when I doubted that we had made the right choices. I mean… “What if we do all this and then it doesn’t work?” That was a question that played over and over in my mind and the devil began to use that as a fear to haunt me. I knew that if it didn’t work I didn’t want to become bitter and quit on the Lord because even if he didn’t give us our desire He had still been to good to us to walk away bitter and angry with Him, but I was still scared.

I began praying and seeking The Lord for peace from this fear that I felt, and just when I was beginning to think He would not answer me He showed me this verse.   …Fear ye not, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which he will show to you today… Exodus 14:13. I wrote the date in my Bible as a reminder to myself. It was on July 7, 2013 during Sunday School, Jonathan touched on this verse for just a few minutes during the lesson but it jumped out at me and I clung to it as if it were the knot at the bottom of a rope. It was at that point that I truly began to trust The Lord that He WAS gonna show us a miracle! I didn’t know how or when, but at that time it was as if it were HIS promise to me and I didn’t have to fear or worry anymore.

Instead I began praying that if it were His will for us to have children how happy we would be but if He didn’t then I was still gonna walk on and love the Lord no matter what. Then I heard this song and it stuck with me! Looking back now we had NO IDEA of the plans God had laid out for us! Only He could have orchestrated things to happen the way they did. What we saw as an impossible situation, He changed into a miracle for us.

Now I have two beautiful gifts from God, and they call me Mommy! I’m thankful for the miracle of my children, I’m thankful for how God changed our home, I’m thankful God answered our prayer and gave us the desire of our hearts, and I’m thankful He loved me enough to answer my prayer even though I didn’t deserve it. THE LORD TRULY IS GOOD ALL OF THE TIME!

We’re Back!

We just wanted to drop a quick post to say we’re back, and hope to be blogging again more regularly to keep you updated on our journey. Once we decided we were ready to get our blog back up and running we knew we needed to make some changes to update everything with the site itself and that has taken us a couple weeks to get everything where we want it. We hope you like it and we hope you will keep up with us here.

I made a promise that when we reached our goal that I wasn’t going to go into hiding and never blog again. Now that our family has grown, we want to share with the world how good God has been to us! Being a stay at home wife and Momma has always been my dream and now it has come true! Living every day with 2 toddlers is always interesting and there is certainly NEVER a dull moment in this house. There is nothing fancy about us. We live a simple life way out in God’s country and like it that way!

Like most other families we have a full and busy life, and it seems like we are always on the go but through each day our hearts’ desire is that anyone who knows us will know that we love the Lord… We know we are nothing without Him. My prayer is that as we live each day to serve Him we will be a light to those around us and I hope that our family will be a blessing to each of you as you read a little more about our lives from day to day!

Answered Prayers

IMG_7869epxA month ago we promised some huge news. We had to keep it fairly quiet a little longer for legal reasons, but here it is!

We posted a while back about Kyeli and Dane. They’ve been with us in our home now for a year and a few months. To say that we’ve grown attached to them, and them to us, is a massive understatement. So with much prayer, thought and counsel from family and friends, we decided to pursue adoption of them to make them a forever part of our home.

We did our best to reach out to all of you who have donated through the site or gave to us in other ways to let you know what was going on. We used the money that we had been raising for IMG_7815epx2IVF to pay all of the fees associated with the adoption. Because of those costs, along with the fact we hadn’t yet raised enough of the money to cover IVF, we aren’t able to do both. As we discussed that thought between ourselves, we finally (and almost reluctantly) dealt with the ‘elephant in the room’ and asked if we were ok with not pursuing IVF and not having our own biological child. I think we were reluctant because we feared what the other’s answer might be, not because we were afraid of answering it ourselves. But when we finally did, the answer was an immediate and definite “Yes! I’m totally ok with that!” You see, we’ve been praying for years for children, and many of you have been helping us pray. Though we sought God in our decision to pursue IVF, He obviously had different plans. When we IMG_7936estarted this site and began asking for financial help, Dane hadn’t even been born yet. But He had made it clear to both of us that this was the direction we should go.

Once the decision was made, we spoke to lawyers and more friends and got started with the process. I won’t go into a lot of detail here (maybe in future posts if you all are interested), but dealing with lawyers, home study people and paralegals was something we’d never gone through in any way, so we were like a couple of fish out of water. We felt like every question we asked were stupid ones, but everyone we dealt with was very helpful through the entire process. We were nervous about different IMG_7998ethings, but looking back we can see how God had His hand in it, helping things move along very smoothly.

So as of July 1st, we are officially and legally Mommy and Daddy to Kyeli and Dane! We love them in a way we could never have imagined loving two little people, and I can’t tell you how many tears of joy have been shed.

‘Thank you’ seems like such weak words to say how grateful we are to each of you for your prayers and for your financial help in this process, but it’s all I know how to say…thank you!

Happy 4th Ya’ll!

This $5 friday is also Independence Day! I hope y’all have a fun filled, and safe weekend. I’m looking forward to a day with family and then going to see the fireworks tonight with the little ones. Then tomorrow evening we are going to a big cookout at my Aunt’s house so stay tuned for pictures. 😉

Also, let’s not forget the reason we celebrate this holiday. I’m thankful for America and its foundation! She is in sad shape spiritually but she is still the greatest country on earth. The freedom we have today is not free. It cost a great price and I’m thankful for the forefathers we had, that while they committed treason and signed their death warrant, trusted God and stood for what was right. I’m thankful for the brave men and women who are still fighting abroad to preserve that freedom and keep us safe today.

I’m thankful for God’s blessings on our land. He has truly blessed us all and I pray that I will not forget that. I’m thankful to be called a Christian and that I am God’s child but as I hung the flag up outside just a few moments ago a feeling a pride filled me inside and as I watch her blow softly in the wind I can say… I’m thankful to be called an American!

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An Example… Good or Bad?

This past Sunday night after church Jonathan and I along with our Pastor and family went to some friends’ house for a get-together they were having. It was an evening of fun, fellowship, food, football, and good friends. While the guys sat watching the football game the ladies had fun gabbing about anything and everything.

Everything from food recipes to family members, upcoming church events, and even some questions were asked about the progress we are making in raising the money for our procedure. As we continued to talk I expressed my concern that I sometimes feel hesitant to share our blog on Fridays. Not because it embarrasses me for others to know about our story or anything like that. My hesitation comes from a fear of what some will think or say. Now… I know I shouldn’t let this bother me, but when you are sharing things about your personal life it’s hard not to wonder what other people will think of you for what you are doing. There are so many people who have been an encouragement to us and have helped us, but I have to admit that I’ve come across some people that have been very negative toward what we are doing. I suppose it’s these few comments that the devil has used against me to make me feel this way.

Since we started our blog, we knew all privacy for our situation would go out the window, and we were willing to accept that fact because what we wanted most from all of this was not solely about raising the money we need, (of course the financial support is a great need) and we desire your prayers very much, but our greatest desire is that people would see the true desire of our hearts is to please God throughout this whole process.

Jonathan and I are not perfect. We don’t have a perfect home, or a perfect marriage. We fail and make mistakes everyday. I fail so bad at telling how good God has been to us throughout all of this. I’m thankful that in spite of my failures He still chooses to use ordinary, everyday people, and while we do fail we are trying our best to do what’s right.

Sometimes I feel like I’m being so selfish in sharing something else about “us…” every Friday, but at the same time I do believe that it’s a good idea to share often so that it helps people to remember to pray for us. We want people to see the Lord in our lives and our story. To see that we love Him no matter what will happen. While this is OUR story we want the whole thing to be based around Him. He deserves the glory and praise for the miracle that we are seeing happen in our lives!

We know that He has used many of you to help us financially and we do not take this lightly. We know there are many of you that pray for us, and there have been many days when I know God has heard and answered your prayer because some days are hard. It’s in these times that I’m reminded again of how weak I am, but how strong He is! I know many of you know where I’m coming from because in some way or another from your own experiences you know how hard it can be waiting for God’s timing so we appreciate those prayers very much as we are learning patience. 😉 This is my favorite Bible verse and it very often comes to my mind.

Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. Psalm 27:14

I know that while we have shared our story many times here on our blog and different social websites there are still many people who don’t know what our story is about, and maybe some will not even be interested to know, but we do hope that each time we share our blog that it will somehow be a blessing to someone else, that somehow we will be a help and a good example through all that we do, that somehow God will get the glory!

Thank you to all those that follow our story, and may God bless you all!

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Alexandra Grace Boyer

1521955_10151989757924263_1121373202_nWe want to say a big congratulations to Jamin and Joy on the birth of their new baby girl! Alexandra was born on January 4, 2014. Jonathan and I went to Ohio for a few days earlier this week for a visit to meet our new sweet niece. She is beautiful and precious in every way.

This makes us have 8 nephews and 2 nieces now. There’s Ryder (14), Braden (13), Daniel (8), Jackson (6), Zechariah (5), Timothy (4), Colt (4), Eva (2), Gunner (4 Months), and Alexandra (2 weeks). Each one is special in their own way and they mean the world to me. I love being Aunt Becky, and I know how much Jonathan loves being their Uncle. I’ve watched him around them, and I’ve seen how much they love him. I know these kiddos are not ours but I love every moment we get to spend with them, and I hope that someday soon all these nephews and nieces of ours will someday soon have some more cousins from us!

Rejoicing In Heaven!

May 6, 1936 - Jan 14, 2014

May 6, 1936 – Jan 14, 2014
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It’s Friday again and while I am always excited to share any updates we may have in getting closer to being able to do our IVF procedure instead today I am very sad. Today my family will be spending much of the day at the funeral home and graveside for my Grandma who passed away on Tuesday. This was very sudden and a major shock to my family. Grandma had battled with dementia for the past several years and while she had bad days and good days, she seemed like she had been more confused lately than usual. While we all know that my Grandma is in Heaven today sitting at the feet of our Savior we are all still heart broken. We know she will not have to face any more pain, no more confusion, or bad days. For this we all rejoice of course, but my mind has still been filled with many memories of years gone by of my Grandma. I spent many summers with my Grandma and Grandpa and also my Uncle and Nanny.

I think I could write a book and still not describe the wonderful lady that she was. She lived for the past several years in a nursing home more than an hour from where I live. This made it difficult for us to get to see her as often as I would have liked to. I know that is not a really good excuse and I have struggled with feelings of regret for not being there more often. The saying is true that “You don’t realize what you’ve got until you don’t have it anymore.” Now that she is no longer with us I realize how much I miss her and I wish I could see her again. While I didn’t say it as often as I should, I did love her very much and I know that someday I will see her again!

Yesterday morning I was thinking about her and the things our family would face as a whole and individually in the days, weeks, months and even years to come without her. I realized that the next great-grandchild to be born into my family could quite possibly be ours. It was then that I realized that my sweet Grandma will never be able to meet our children. I decided then that I wanted to make her a bracelet with our signature puzzle piece charm on it. I know of course that it is something very small, that in the grand scheme of things does not matter and is going to fade away with time, but it is sentimental to me and so I chose to make it anyway.

I don’t want to end this post on a sad note so I will just ask that you please pray for my family today. Also… please keep praying for us as we continue raising the money we need so we can do our IVF procedure and if you have it to give please help us. We are getting closer and closer to our goal and we are very excited and can’t wait to see even more miracles that the Lord has in store for our family.

Thank you again for your prayers and support. I cannot begin to describe the blessing that y’all have been to us!

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Snowy Days

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As everyone knows all of the U.S. is facing some extreme weather. Some areas are much worse than others. The only state that seems to have it easy is Florida. They still have perfect temperatures in the 70’s. I heard today on the news that the last time we saw temperatures this low in Tennessee was in 1996. That was 18 years ago! That is so hard for me to imagine because it seems like 1996 was just a few years ago. Now I just feel OLD! 😉

Anyway, when we woke up this morning the thermometer said -3! I poked my head out the back door for just a few seconds and saw the pond. It was so beautiful. In spite of the very frigid temperature the sun was shining very brightly on the pond which made it look all sparkly. I enjoyed the beautiful view for just a few seconds before quickly closing the door due to the fact that even though there was sunshine it was very deceiving.

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I jokingly told Jonathan he should go take a picture of the pond. He surprised me and said that he was wanting to go outside anyway just to say he had been in weather that cold. I told him he was nutty, but honestly I’m glad he did because he got some great shots of his uncle’s pond. I think we have pictures of this pond from every season, but these are definitely some of my favorites.

I love living up on this big mountain way out in the sticks. It suites this country girl just fine. Way out here… in God’s country, every season seems to bring with it its small charms that can so easily be taken for granted. I love being so close to it all and being a part of it everyday. I just wanted to share with y’all some of the pictures that were taken this morning. Here’s to 0 degree weather, fireplaces, ice, and a whole lot of praying for a little snow… pun intended! 😉

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