It’s Friday again and while I am always excited to share any updates we may have in getting closer to being able to do our IVF procedure instead today I am very sad. Today my family will be spending much of the day at the funeral home and graveside for my Grandma who passed away on Tuesday. This was very sudden and a major shock to my family. Grandma had battled with dementia for the past several years and while she had bad days and good days, she seemed like she had been more confused lately than usual. While we all know that my Grandma is in Heaven today sitting at the feet of our Savior we are all still heart broken. We know she will not have to face any more pain, no more confusion, or bad days. For this we all rejoice of course, but my mind has still been filled with many memories of years gone by of my Grandma. I spent many summers with my Grandma and Grandpa and also my Uncle and Nanny.
I think I could write a book and still not describe the wonderful lady that she was. She lived for the past several years in a nursing home more than an hour from where I live. This made it difficult for us to get to see her as often as I would have liked to. I know that is not a really good excuse and I have struggled with feelings of regret for not being there more often. The saying is true that “You don’t realize what you’ve got until you don’t have it anymore.” Now that she is no longer with us I realize how much I miss her and I wish I could see her again. While I didn’t say it as often as I should, I did love her very much and I know that someday I will see her again!
Yesterday morning I was thinking about her and the things our family would face as a whole and individually in the days, weeks, months and even years to come without her. I realized that the next great-grandchild to be born into my family could quite possibly be ours. It was then that I realized that my sweet Grandma will never be able to meet our children. I decided then that I wanted to make her a bracelet with our signature puzzle piece charm on it. I know of course that it is something very small, that in the grand scheme of things does not matter and is going to fade away with time, but it is sentimental to me and so I chose to make it anyway.
I don’t want to end this post on a sad note so I will just ask that you please pray for my family today. Also… please keep praying for us as we continue raising the money we need so we can do our IVF procedure and if you have it to give please help us. We are getting closer and closer to our goal and we are very excited and can’t wait to see even more miracles that the Lord has in store for our family.
Thank you again for your prayers and support. I cannot begin to describe the blessing that y’all have been to us!