I recently did a post titled “All About Zidane.” Jonathan and I have been taking care of him for a little over 6 weeks now. He also has a big sister named Kyeli. She will be 2 at the end of this month. Jonathan’s older sister, Kristan and her husband have been taking care of Kyeli. She has stayed with them so much since she was born and they love her and are as attached to her as she is to them. She is a beautiful curly haired little girl and she and Zidane look just alike. 🙂
Please pray for these babies and the situation they are in. This situation is awful and it has broke our family’s heart. Please pray for wisdom from the Lord that His will would be done and that we would all know the direction He wants us to take. Please pray for their Mother and Father! They need the Lord in their lives!
I’ve prayed to the point that I don’t even know what to pray anymore, but I know God can hear the unspoken cry of His child too. I’ve held Dane (as we call him) and cried wondering how you could have children that you don’t want. I’ve been so angry at times with their parents for what they’ve done, but have also been reminded that for the grace of God this could be me in this situation. I’ll admit that at times this anger has been hard to swallow and instead pray for them. I’ve never really been faced with this situation to pray for someone that has done so much wrong and has caused so much pain. A situation that is so close to my heart and while I’m trying to pray for what is best for these babies and His will, I’m struggling with the own desires of my heart. I’ve prayed that God might show us if His will in this matter is the desires of our heart, but I’ve also prayed that if we have to send them home that God will give us all peace in our hearts.
I don’t understand why He has put us in this place. To love this sweet baby boy and still raise money for In-vitro at the same time? I don’t have all the answers but I know that He has not told us to stop either. I know that when you don’t know what to do you don’t do anything at all. We know God has His hand in this and that He has a great plan in mind so we continue on and we continue trusting Him, we continue to wait for His timing and for now we continue to love, and take care of this precious little boy. Dane is so easy to love but its also so hard to love so much knowing that we may have to let him go while we still have none of our own to hold. But for now…. we are having the time of our lives with him.
Please keep praying for us and this desperate situation these babies are in. Pray for my brother-in-law and sister-in-law that God will give them peace. Pray that God will help them as they are in the same situation with Kyeli that we are in with Dane. Pray that God will give us wisdom to know His will. Pray for grace. Pray for His strength. Pray that we learn to trust Him more through this pain that we all are feeling in this matter.
Please pray for me and Jonathan as we continue in His plan for us to raise the money for our in-vitro procedure and that at the same time we can be what this little boy needs us to be for him. Thank you to everyone that is praying for us and the blessing you have all been in our lives. Thank you for the financial support that you’ve given and if you are able please help us again today. We are $235.00 away from having $10,000! To God be the glory!